Through the Eyes of Love

 

 

 

Watching him sleep is my favorite pastime these days. Guess I’m getting old if this is what excites me. But man is he beautiful.

Those lips, that smile as he dreams, how he looks so peaceful, all make me feel as though I’m witnessing perfection.

I’d never tell him, though. Not because he’d laugh at me, which I’m sure he would, but because this is my special time to just love him without having to deal with the bullshit that comes with it all.

Yeah, I’m not big on showing my feelings, so sue me. My family and friends know that I love them. And isn’t that what matters in life?

I can’t change who I am and he’s finally learned to trust that I care for and love him deeply. It only took ten fucking years, but he knows it. He’s who I come home to, because I want to.

In fact, I love that he’s here. I love walking in the door and seeing him in the kitchen. Even if he’s made it look like a tornado’s blown through the loft. 

He isn’t the most organized soul, but he is perfect in my eyes. Hell, I can even put up with the chaos he creates because out of it usually comes brilliance. And he makes me happy.

Happier than I ever thought possible. Fuck, I don’t do happy, right? Well guess what, I’ve learned to just enjoy it. To just let him love me and love him in return.

Took a long damn time for me to realize that he’s important in my life. Or at least to admit it to myself. He claims to have known it all this time.

I’m still not convinced he’s not insane. I mean let’s think about it, he fell in love with someone who didn’t know how to love. And he stuck around after all the bullshit. Even when he was with that fiddler, he was still here. He’s the one who’s never let me down. The one who’s always there when times are good and when they’re bad.

Do I love him? Of course I do.  I love him more than my own life. I’d lay it down for him without question. He has given me a joy I never knew existed.

And I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that he loves me.

So, where does this leave us?

Right where we belong. With each other, facing life as partners. Just taking it one day at a time. Now if you’ll excuse me, I have a beautiful set of lips to kiss awake.

Finis

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