The Conversation

Debbie's Kitchen early Friday evening

"Hi Honey, where's David"

"He's teaching a class this evening at the University, so I thought I'd come by and have dinner here. So where's the Boy Wonder?"

Debbie and Vic look at each other hesitantly and say. "Out."

"Out where? Let me guess, Babylon or Woody's?"

"No honey he's out with Brian. He said Brian was taking him somewhere special for dinner. Sunshine looked real nice in his suit and tie. It's the first time I've seen him dressed up other than when he's wearing his uniform."

"Yeah right. Brian took him out to dinner. Brian doesn't do dates."

Vic chimes in, "Maybe not ordinarily but he seems to do dates with Justin. He's even taken him to work with him."

Michael gets quiet but doesn't say anything.

Later that evening…seeing the light from the kitchen Justin enters talking.

"Hi. I'm home. Debbie you didn't have to wait up for … Oh it's you Michael, Hi. What are you doing here so late?"

"This is MY mother's house. I can be here as late as I want. Now, what's this load of crap you been feeding my mother and Vic about Brian taking you out to dinner? Brian doesn't DO romantic dinners."

"Brian does what ever Brian wants to do and tonight he wanted to do a romantic dinner. Besides, not that it's any of your business but we were celebrating my getting a 97 on an exam he helped me study for."

"Yeah right."

"You know Michael any other night I'd stand here and argue with you about it, but I'm feeling too good to let you spoil it for me. Later."

"You're in my mother's house and I don't appreciate you lying to her."

"I'M NOT LYING! Okay Michael that's it. You and I need to end this once and for all. You might as well get used to the idea that not only am I a part of your mother's life, but that I am a part of Brian's life. I know that you have loved Brian since …"

"Loved Brian…Brian is my best friend."

"As I was saying I KNOW that you have loved Brian since you were 14 years old. You can deny it if you want, but everyone KNOWS it. Just like everyone KNOWS that I LOVE Brian, too. The difference is I love who Brian is and not who I want him to be."

"I won't lie and say that I don't want to be the only person that Brian sleeps with or that I dream of the day Brian actually tells me that he loves me, but that's not going to happen at least not now and hard as it is for me to take it may never happen. But I had to decide if I could live with that or not and guess what I can because by letting Brian be Brian I get romantic dinners and trips to his office and making out in the back of his Jeep and sleeping in his arms. So when Brian wants to take me out for dinner I don't ask why. If I call and ask if I can come over and Brian has someone with him I don't whine about it. It hurts, but it is who Brian is."

"Michael you don't like me because I have what you want--Brian Kinney as a lover, but guess what you have what I want Brian Kinney's friendship and love. So get off my back. Now I'm going to bed. You know you might be where I am if you'd just have been able to accept the real Brian and not kept trying to change him. Or expecting all or nothing."

"I'm only 17 and I know the world isn't that cut and dried. Bye."

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