Justin watched Brian pull another trick from the dance floor.  He hated watching Brian with tricks.  He knew that if he wanted a relationship with Brian he would have to accept them, but having them thrown in his face was too much.

 

If I had just one tear running down your cheek
Maybe I could cope maybe I'd get some sleep
If I had just one moment at your expense
Maybe all my misery would be well spent

            Justin wondered if Brian ever thought of him at all.  He thought things were different after they got back together, but Brian’s tricking hadn’t decreased.  He still flaunted his sexual conquests in front of Justin.  He knew this would be a huge mistake.  When he asked Brian to take him back he said he expected nothing, but he hoped he would get something.

 

Yeah... Could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that you're feeling a little more pain
I gave, now I 'm wanting
Something in return
So cry just a little for me

 

            Justin felt he gave Brian all that he could.  He was tired.  Watching his lover pick up trick after trick hurt him in a way one couldn’t explain.  Justin thought Brian missed him after he left.  He saw the fight with Michael and Lindsey told him how Brian had been hiring hustlers that resembled him.  Now that they were back together, Brian was treating him like shit again.  Justin wondered if Brian thought of him at all. 

If your love could be caged, honey, I would hold the key
And conceal it underneath the pile of lies you handed me
And you'd hunt those lies
They'd be all you'd ever find
And that'd be all you'd have to know
For me to be fine

 

            Justin looked over the loft.  All of his things were packed.  He had tried for so long, but things never changed.  Brian was still Brian.  He felt bad about his expectations on the man.  Even though he promised he wouldn’t, he expected things of the older man.  If he had been honest they would have never gotten to where they were, but here they were.

 

Yeah... And you'd cry a little
Die just a little
And baby I would feel just a little less pain
I gave now I'm wanting
Something in return
So cry just a little for me

 

        Justin was packing up the last of his things when the loft door opened.  Brian was standing there, just watching him.  He looked at the luggage and then looked at Justin with questions in his eyes.

 

Give it up, baby
I hear your goodbye
Nothins goin save me
I can see it in your eyes
Some kind of heartache
Darlin’, give it a try
I dont want pity
I just want what is mine

 

            “What are you doing?”

            “I’m leaving.”

            “Why?”

            “Brian, you don’t really want me here, so I am going to leave.”

            Justin was forcing his hand in a way he hadn’t thought possible.  No words would pass through his lips.  He watched as his blonde lover carried his luggage out of their home. 

Yeah... Could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that your're feeling a little more pain
I gave, now I'm wanting
Something in return
So cry just a little for me

Yeah... Cry just a little for me

Wooooo, could you cry a little for me

Yeah, yeah

Cry: Music and Lyrics by Angie Arpaio

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