"What if ..."
Justin had stayed home instead of going to
Vermont?
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Notes: Written in response to What If Moonshadow Tribe Challenge...and my
desire to write something that didn't make me want to drink after writing...so
there...
Spoilers up to the episode where things start to
go to hell in a hand basket for our boys,...second
season, pre pod Justin...
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"Mother fucking closed off emotionally retarded
bastard!
'I have
to work!.. I am sooo
important!.. I can't go with you, I need my
Prada
fucking tie! " Justin muttered to himself
as he scrubbed at the few remaining tiles on the floor of Deb's kitchen.
Earlier in the evening, after getting packed for the scheduled trip
for
Vic opened the door not expecting to find the fuming blond on the
other side of it. "Let me guess, Brian?" he sighed as
the blond fury pushed passed him into the house.
"I am supposed to be on a plane in half an hour, a plane with Brian!
A vacation! A real vacation, just the two of us and no one else and where
am I! Huh?
Where!""In my living room?"
Vic quipped.
"Yeah, in yours and Deb's living room, right back where I started,
back here at the old boarding
house waiting for Brian to make up his mind if I made the cut today and `let'
me be with him."
"Come on " Vic said tossing a knowing arm around Justin's shoulder, "I just made a chocolate cake today, perfect for kevteching and cursing bad boy friends."
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Four hours later, after Vic had long gone to sleep Justin was on his hands
and knees in the kitchen scrubbing the floor. Deb was working the over
night at the diner and Justin had no one to talk to. He sat for a few
minutes but fueled on chocolate cake and anger Justin s did what any good
card carrying homosexual did, he began to compulsively clean the kitchen.
`Brian Kinney's How to be the Best Homosexual You can Possibly Be:
Lesson 236, clean what is already clean.' He
did not know if he was wired for cleaning or what, he just knew that on one
or more occasions he found Brian up at
and relaxing, and time just whizzed buy, only occasionally pausing to rant
and rave about the multiple injustices generated that lead to the ruing of
their vacation.
Around
Justin took pity on Deb around
Justin knew a hint to get out when he heard one. He didn't
relish returning to an empty loft with all of his packed belongings for what
would have been the trip of a life time. Strangely alert, Justin drove
over to his favorite bagel shop knowing they would just be producing the
first batch of hot, fresh bagels of the day. Justin picked up a half
a gallon of fresh squeezed orange juice, and three kinds of cream cheese,
and a slab of salmon. Brian had given him an `emergency' spare credit
card of his and he justified his purchase
as being an emergency since there
was no food at the loft because they were supposed have left town for a week.
Bastard!' he muttered to him self as he drove towards the empty loft.
Justin tried to drag everything he had packed plus the bag from
the bagel shop into the loft in one trip. While the Tremont loft address
itself was built like a fortress, there was a reason for all of the security,
Justin didn't want to tempt any passersby's into breaking
into Deb's car. Better
safe then sorry.
Struggling with his packages and the loft front door, Justin failed
to notice that he wasn't alone.
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Chicago had been more of a success then
he even planed. He had made partner, secured his job with a new plumb
account, a new fucking huge salary and erased the fear his new boss had instilled
in him in one day. FUCK YEAH! Brian's brain kept saying on loop in
his brain, replacing the look of disappointment earlier in Justin's face
at the news they couldn't go snowboarding. The excitement and feeling
of
accomplishment pushed
away any sense of self consciousness and doubt about how to act, or what
to do, or how to be the best `Brian Kinney'
he could be. He just wanted
to be with Justin and be himself. Tonight, that was good enough, he
was good enough even for himself. He stopped and picked up the most
expensive bottle of champagne he could find and went straight back home.
Home, he thought, "FUCK YEAH!" was all he thought too.
His home, the loft, their home, together, his and
Justin's. Brian pushed away all the worry and stress of the
day
Brain's enthusiasm had not damped much after the initial disappointment
of coming home to an empty loft. He quickly changed and went in search
of his `partner.' He didn't want to call Justin on his
cell, he wanted to surprise him and then drag his
beautiful, perfect, creamy white ass back to the loft and fuck him to within
an inch of his life. Fuck
Brian's natural high went to desperate low after Mikey told him
Justin had left for
Michael watched his best friend try to mask his disappointment
at his news that Justin had gone to
Brian walked down the cold alleyway with his shoulders slumped.
He gave himself 30 seconds of disappointment and self pity .No one
was going to take this feeling of accomplishment away from him.
No one. It was an accomplishment, and
accomplishments were meant to be celebrated. Fuck Justin and
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Brian just ended up back at the loft. He didn't go to the Baths or
Babylon. He just came back to the
empty loft, alone. Back was the feeling of disappointment, his
disappointment that Justin wasn't there and the look of disappointment on
Justin's face when he told
him he had to miss the
trip. Grabbing a glass and bottle of `Beam
from the kitchen, Brian
found himself on the couch trying to drown out all his feelings. It
had been one of the most stressful days of his life and soon Brian succumbed
to the liquor and loneliness on the couch and fell asleep.
Brian noticed he wasn't alone first. He woke with at start at the sound
of the elevator door slamming open. His eyes were drawn to the
dvd clock, it was
"You missed curfew Sunshine." Brain stated simply, angrily.
"EEEEEEEEEEEEK!" Justin screamed at the
top of his lungs throwing all of his bags and packages flying. Brian
hadn't prepared himself for Justin screaming at him and responded by screaming
"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!' and jumping about six feet
in the air.
"Mother fucker Brian, you scared! The!
.Shit out!
.Of me!
" Justin huffed trying to get
control of his racing heart rate. As Brain tried to do the same they
looked at the mess, bagels, luggage and both of them scared like two little
boys who just saw their first ghost.
"You missed curfew." Brian said, trying desperately to get control
of
the situation and his
breath.
"You're supposed to be in
"So, I go to
"Ha! As if you would be following the
rules!" Justin spat back,
remembering he was supposed
to be mad at Brian. Brian leaned over and grabbed Justin's arm roughly.
"Where were you!" Brian demanded.
Justin felt a gush of warmth rush through him. `He's
jealous!, Brian's jealous.' He reveled in the feeling.
Brian looked at him and grimaced, `he can tell I'm acting like a jealous
twat."
"Was he hot?"
"Oh, yeah
totally hot!" Justin giggled.
Brian looked angry. Oops!.
"and he makes one hell of a chocolate cake!"
Brian pushed
Justin away in disgust.
"Brian! It was Vic! I was at Vic and Deb's house, I had
come cake and then I cleaned the kitchen." Brian
sniffed and put his hands on his hips. He smelled cleaning fluid.
Justin held up a set of keys, adorned with four different rainbow key
chains and a purple rabbits foot.
Deb's keys. "I was there so late Deb
gave me the keys to the boat and I came home. And then you scared the shit
out of me!"
Rubbing his face with his hands Brian looked down and noticed Justin's
luggage. "what's the luggage for?"
"I was gonna leave for our vacation"
"With out me?"
"Yep, but then I realized it wasn't going to be "Our" vacation
if you weren't there to make up the "Our" part of it." Justin said, slowly
stepping towards the angry giant in front of him. He slipped his arms
around Brian's waist and pulled him close, meeting no resistance to the act
of closeness.
Brian sighed and rubbed his chin on the crown of Justin's golden
hair and whispered "I wanted to go, you know
that don't you?"
"I do now." Justin said nuzzling into Brian's chest and squeezing
him tight. "Vic showed me the announcement in the business
section of the paper of Gardner Vance's purchase
of the Ryder Advertising Agency and then promptly firing the entire management
staff. " Lifting his blue eye up
he connected with Brian's hazel gaze. "Everyone
was fired except for you. Brian, why didn't you tell me?"
"I did tell you, I had to make this business trip, I seem to remember
a little conversation about paying for tuition, Armani
etc.."
"No, you told me that you had to go on a business trip with out
any explanation. All week you had been talking about how the agency
needed you and all that then wham, you left for
"I didn't want to worry you?" Brian said simply, hoping that
was
enough. Justin grabbed
on to Brian even tighter if that was possible and Brian was returning the
favor practically squeezing him to death. Now Justin had two avenues
of response. One, blame Brian for not sharing, have a long talk about
open communication, the futility of hiding things from each other or
Two,
take path of least resistance with the most benefit to both of them.
"Bri?"
"Yes?"
"Um, could we just skip the evitable conversation and argument
and just go straight to the make up sex.?"
"Are we having an argument?"
"Um, yeah, but it's over now and it's time for the
hotmake up sex." Justin broke contact with
Brian and grabbed his hand and started to drag him towards the bedroom.
"Yes dear!" Brian said, letting Justin drag him anywhere
hewanted him to go.
(Author's note: If I werent so repressed and Prissy...I would have
written a really hot make up sex scene
here...hehehe)
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