A
Work in Progress
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Brian paced the
loft. He had waited for almost three hours to hear from Justin, but not a
word. He had dropped Justin off in front of Ethan’s building around 10 pm.
It was now almost 1 am. He should have heard from Justin by now.
He had wanted to
stay, to wait while Justin told Ethan that it was over. Justin had sent him
away, saying he didn’t know how long it would take, and he didn’t want Brian
to have to wait in the Jeep. 'Probably thought that I would burst in on
them, and I would have long before now,' Brian thought. Justin had promised
to call when it was done, but he hadn’t so far. 'Could they still be
talking? Had Justin changed his mind? Had Ethan done something to him?
Surely not, but why hasn’t he called?' Brian wondered.
Brian had downed
half a bottle of Beam while he waited, but it hadn’t helped much. He didn’t
want to get too drunk in case Justin needed him, but he had to take the edge
off or he was going to go crazy.
Finally the phone
rang. Brian grabbed it and said, “Justin?”
“Yeah. It’s me,”
was the reply.
“Thank God. I’ve
been going crazy. Where are you? Are you all right?”
“I’m at Deb’s, in
my old room. I got here a little while ago. Of course, she made me eat
something and tell her what’s going on. I kept it to a minimum. Nothing
about you and me, just that Ethan and I are through. Finally she let me go
to bed, so I could call you.”
“Do you want me to
come and get you?”
“I want that so
bad, but not yet. We still haven’t sorted everything out.”
“But you’re done
with Ethan?”
“Yeah. It’s
finished.”
“How did it go?
Are you all right?”
”It was pretty
awful. I think he knew it was coming, but that didn’t make it any easier.
He said some awful things.”
"Like what?”
“That I used him.
That I never cared for him. That I was a selfish prick.”
“That one’s usually
reserved for me.”
“I know.” Justin
had to chuckle, even though he felt miserable about what had happened with
Ethan. “I guess I deserved it, but it hurt to hear him say those things. I
never set out to hurt him, and I do care about him. I just never loved him
the way I love you.”
Brian sighed. He
knew that Justin wanted him to say that he loved him back, but he couldn’t.
It would make Justin feel better, but he couldn’t. He wasn’t ready, but he
remembered Lindsay’s words about telling Justin what he was thinking and
feeling. He had to try.
“Justin, I can’t
say those words yet, but I’m glad you’re okay and back in my life.”
“Me too,” said
Justin. “Will you meet me after work? We still have a lot to talk about.”
“Want to go to
dinner at the Thai restaurant?”
“Like a date?”
Brian rolled his
eyes.
“I know you’re
rolling your eyes,” Justin said.
Brian laughed.
“You’re right. Do you think we’re back in sync?”
“Getting there.”
Justin smiled.
“I’ll pick you up
in front of your studio building at six.”
“It’s a date,”
Justin insisted.
“It’s a date,” said
Brian, giving in. “God, I’m horny. I don’t know how I’ll ever get any
sleep tonight.”
“Maybe I can help
you with that, and you could help me in return.”
“It would be much
simpler if I just came and got you.”
“Briiaann,” Justin
whined.
“Oh, all right.
Are you in bed?”
“Give me a minute.
You get naked too.”
“I am.”
“Saucy bastard.
What were you planning to do?” Justin wanted to know.
“I have some
secrets even you don’t know about.”
“You’ll have to
show me some day.”
“Only if you’re a
really, really bad boy.”
“I can do that.”
“I know you can.”
“What are you doing
right now?” Justin asked.
“Lying on the bed,
playing with my dick, and wanting you to suck it like only you can.”
“You have such a
way with words, Mr. Kinney. Flattery will get you, and me, a hard on.”
“I’ve already got
one.”
“Me too.”
“What are you going
to do with it?”
“Right now I’m
picturing it in your mouth. Aah, Brian, you give such great blowjobs.
You’re licking the slit and running your tongue up and down the sides.”
“Uhhnn,” Brian
groaned. “I’m sucking your balls, rolling them around with my tongue. You
taste so good. I’m so hard, thinking about it.”
“Take me into your
mouth, all the way.”
“You got it. All
the way down my throat. Oh fuck. I’m almost ready. Are you? I want us to
come at the same time.”
“Almost. You’re
sucking me off faster and faster. Faster, Brian! Don’t stop! Feels so
good.”
Brian worked his
hand up and down his shaft, increasingly frantic, as Justin begged him to go
faster and faster.
“Oh God, I’m
coming,” Brian yelled.
“Me too. Oh, oh,
oh, Brian! Now!!” Justin moaned, trying not to wake Deb and Vic.
“Fuck. That was
great! How was it for you, Justin?”
“Peachy,” Justin
replied, using one of Brian’s patented answers.
“You little shit,”
Brian grinned.
“It was fabulous.”
Justin laughed. “I think maybe I can get some sleep now.”
“Me too. See you
for dinner, if I can wait that long.”
“Night, Brian. I
love you.”
“Night,” Brian
said, and shut the phone off. For the first time he wanted to say ‘I love
you’ back. 'Maybe next time,' he thought, and rolled over to get one of the
best sleeps he had had in a long time.
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At 6 pm Brian
pulled up in front of the studio building. Justin was standing on the
steps, and he ran down when he saw the Jeep.
'A little different
from the last time I picked him up here,' Brian thought, smiling to himself.
Justin pulled open
the door and flung himself at Brian. They kissed passionately for several
minutes, sucking and groping, not able to get enough of each other.
Finally Justin
pulled back, and said breathlessly, “I’m hungry.”
“So am I. For
you.” Brian continued to kiss him and lick his chin, his neck, his ear.
“Stop, Brian. We
need to eat, and talk.”
Brian groaned. “My
cock is going to explode into a million pieces if we keep doing this.”
“Always bragging
about how big it is.” Justin clucked his teeth in mock disapproval.
Brian laughed. “I
think I’ve missed laughing with you more than almost anything else.”
“I know. I missed
it too. Ethan was always so serious. Oh shit! I’m sorry. I won’t bring
him up again.” Justin looked scared.
“Don’t worry. He’s
a fact of our lives. He’s one of the things we’ll have to talk about.”
“I don’t want to
ruin everything by bringing him up. We were having fun.”
“We still can.
Let’s go to dinner.”
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They ate and made
small talk for a while, just enjoying being together. Finally Brian thought
they better settle some things.
“I want you to move
back into the loft,” he said.
“You know we have
to make some decisions first. I don’t want things to end up the way they
did before.”
“Neither do I, but
as I was trying to tell you the night of the infamous Jeep incident, I am
trying to change.”
“What brought this
on, Brian? I’m the one who cheated,” Justin said. “I have to change.”
“We both do.
That’s what Lindsay showed me. I barely listened to you and rarely talked.
You talked, but without making me listen. We kind of brushed past each
other without really hearing or connecting. Those last few weeks were
Hell. I don’t want to do that again.”
“That makes two of
us. It sounds like you have been doing a lot of thinking.”
“I have. I tried
to imagine my life without you. I even tried to go back to my old life -
the ‘fuck ‘em all, don’t give a shit, heartless bastard’ that I used to be.
Somewhere in trying to recapture that ‘I don’t give a damn’ philosophy, I
realized I do give a damn. About you. You say I ruined you for anybody
else; well you ruined me for my old life. Lindsay said I couldn’t go back,
I had to go forward.”
“Wow!”
“Wow, what?” Brian
asked.
“You just blew me
away. I’ve never heard you analyze things like that before.”
“That doesn’t mean
I don’t think about things. I just never express them out loud.”
“But now you are.
Saying them out loud, I mean. That’s great, Brian.”
“Well, don’t get
too used to it. I’ve never found it easy to talk about this stuff.”
“You’re always
easy.”
“Lucky for you.”
Brian grinned at the sexy innuendo.
“Seriously though,
I like this new and improved Brian Kinney.”
“I think I do too.
But I also realize that I’m not easy to live with. I told you that these
changes were ‘a work in progress’, and they are. I’m not finished with them
yet, and I’m sure there will be times when I revert to my old habits. I’ve
had 30 years to polish my defenses, and they’re not going to disappear
overnight, or completely.”
“That’s very
realistic,” Justin said seriously. “I wouldn’t want you to change
everything. I fell in love with the old Brian Kinney, and I don’t want him
to disappear. Maybe we can just smooth off some of the edges. I’ll try not
to expect too much too fast. We’ll take it slow.”
“And if I can’t
handle something, I’ll tell you that it’s ‘a work in progress’, which means
I’m trying, but I’m not there yet.”
“And I’ll try to
back off. Not push you.”
“Agreed.” Brian
stuck out his hand to shake. Justin took it, and was pulled across the
table into a kiss. When Brian let him go, Justin looked around,
embarrassed.
“Still into public
displays, I see,” Justin kidded. “Let’s get out of here.”
“Right.” Brian
threw down a generous amount of money and they hurriedly made their way to
the Jeep.
As soon as they
were in the car, Brian pounced on Justin again. He kissed him and kissed
him and kissed him. Justin tried to speak, but Brian would smother his
mouth with more kisses.
Finally Justin was
able to push him away.
“Don’t make me
stop,” Brian begged. “I need you,” and he started kissing again.
“Brian...” A kiss
smothered his words. “Brian.”
“What?” Brian
moaned, finally letting up.
“Let’s go to the
loft.”
“Do you mean it?”
Brian asked, eyes wide.
“Yes. Hurry!”
Brian slammed the
car in gear and peeled away. They raced through the streets at breakneck
speeds.
“Don’t kill us
before we get there. I want to fuck you at least once more before I die,”
Justin said, only partially joking.
“I’m going to fuck
you a million times before either of us dies.”
“Is that all? Only
a million?”
“Greedy pig! Okay,
a billion.”
“Better.”
“A trillion.”
“Even better.”
“I don’t know what
comes after a trillion.”
“Neither do I,”
Justin laughed. “But I think maybe a trillion will do.”
“So easily
satisfied,“ Brian smirked.
“Don’t be too
sure. You may have to give me half that trillion tonight.”
“I’m ready,” Brian
stated, as they pulled up in front of the loft.
They raced into the
building and up the stairs. The elevator would have been torture. Brian
got them into the loft as fast as he could. He slammed and locked the door.
“No one’s
interrupting us tonight.”
He grabbed Justin
and pulled him against his chest. Their mouths melded together and Brian’s
heart pounded. This was the way it should be. Only one thing could make it
better.
He started pulling
off Justin’s clothes, still kissing him and edging them both toward the
bedroom. Justin got Brian’s suit jacket off. It was the silk Armani. He
loved the feel of it. He started on the buttons to Brian’s shirt.
They had reached
the bed by then. Brian pushed Justin backwards onto the bed, and pulled off
his shoes, pants and underwear. Justin’s cock sprang up, dripping pre-cum.
“Somebody’s missed
me,” Brian observed, taking off his shirt.
He started to undo
his trousers, when Justin said, “Don’t. Leave them on. I want to feel the
silk when you fuck me.” He unzipped Brian’s fly, and pulled out the
straining cock. He gave it a gentle kiss on the tip and licked up the
pre-cum.
“God, Justin,”
Brian groaned.
“I can’t wait,
Brian.”
Brian stuck a
pillow under Justin’s ass and knelt on the floor, pushing Justin’s knees up.
His tongue licked Justin’s pucker and then dove inside. Justin tasted
so good. His tongue went to work loosening the hole, diving deeper and
deeper. Justin moaned and writhed in ecstasy. Brian loved that sound.
“Fuck me now! I
can’t wait!” Justin begged.
“It’s going to be
fast and hard,” Brian warned, barely in control, as he slipped on a condom
and lube.
“Now!” Justin
demanded.
Brian rammed all
the way in.
Justin yelled,
“Yes. Oh, yes!”
Justin’s knees were
on Brian’s shoulders, and Brian bent over to kiss him. Justin smiled up at
him. 'Sunshine,' Brian thought, but then nature took over and all rational
thought ceased.
He rocked into
Justin, the silk of his pants hitting Justin’s ass with each thrust. Justin
met each stroke, begging for more.
“I’m going to
shoot,” Justin gasped. As the first squirt of cum hit his chest, Brian
reached his own shattering orgasm.
“Oh, fuck,” Brian
groaned, collapsing on top of Justin, still trapped inside him.
“God, that’s what I
have been wanting for so long,” Justin whispered, kissing Brian’s mouth and
face.
Brian started to
move. “No, stay inside me a little longer,” Justin asked.
“Sure.
Whatever you want,” and Brian kissed him with such tenderness and longing
that Justin almost cried.
After a few
minutes, Brian said, “Can I take my pants off now?”
“Always the
romantic,” Justin teased. “Go ahead.”
Brian eased his
cock out of Justin and disposed of the condom. He took off his pants and
underwear. His cock sprang up immediately, ready for more action.
“Don’t you ever get
enough?” Justin joked.
“I told you there’s
no such thing as enough, especially where you’re concerned.”
“You say such sweet
things.”
“Mush!” said
Brian. “We just did ‘fast and hard’. Are you ready for ‘slow and hard’?”
“I’m always ready.”
“I know. That’s
one of the many things I love about you.”
Justin looked at
him. Brian realized that he had almost said those words. Justin looked
like he was holding his breath.
“Work in progress,”
Brian said, and Justin smiled, letting out his breath.
Brian slid over
closer to Justin on the bed. He kissed Justin’s mouth and started down his
neck. He licked, tugged, kissed and sucked his way down Justin’s body,
giving each area its due. He worked on Justin’s nipples, navel, tender
insides of his thighs, even sucked his toes. Justin moaned and whimpered,
his cock straining and dripping.
“Ready for number
two of a trillion?” Brian asked.
“Let’s get it on,”
Justin replied.
Brian rolled Justin
over, spreading his ass cheeks. His beautiful little hole spasmed a
welcome. Brian had a condom on in no time and plunged in again. This time
he went slow at first, relishing each thrust, changing the angle and speed
as he progressed. Justin grunted his approval. Brian smiled in response.
He rocked in and out, Justin meeting each stroke and wanting more.
'He’s as insatiable
as I am,' Brian thought. They were made for each other. “This is the way
it’s supposed to be,” Brian whispered in Justin’s ear, and he kissed his
neck.
“Couldn’t be
better,” Justin agreed.
Brian felt his
balls constrict and increased his speed. He reached under and grabbed
Justin’s cock.
“Come with me,” he whispered against Justin’s neck.
“I’m there. Oh, oh,
now, Brian!”
Brian collapsed on
top of Justin, his orgasm leaving him spent and senseless.
They lay like that
for a while until their senses began to return to normal.
“I’m covered in
sweat and cum,” Brian said, rolling onto his back and disposing of the
condom.
“I know,” Justin
said. “You smell wonderful. I’m going to eat you.” He crawled on top of
Brian, licking at the sweat and cum on Brian’s chest. “Taste’s great.”
“It’s your cum,”
Brian observed, sticking his tongue in his cheek.
“We can fix that.”
Justin worked his way down to Brian’s cock and started sucking.
“Can’t we rest for
a minute?” Brian asked.
“This is only
number three. We have almost half a trillion left to do,” Justin teased.
“My God, you’re
serious,” and Brian tried to look horrified.
“Of course. I
don’t take bragging likely. You’ll have to prove yourself, old man.”
“Then don’t stop.
I’m ready if you are,” said Brian, noting that his cock seemed to be very
ready.
“You wicked, wicked
man!” Justin said.
“Wicked, wicked
boy,” was the reply.
“After all, a
trillion’s not really so many.”
They both laughed,
happy to be together, content to stay like this forever.
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