Into The LighT
Chapter 6
Insight
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DEBBIE'S POV
Brian is positive. Brian Kinney is positive. Shit I was afraid this would
happen. I just prayed it never would in my lifetime. He may act like
a uncaring prick but I have known him forever. I
know he has a heart in there. I may be the only one who knows that. No Sunshine
knows it too. Sunshine, Sunshine must be freaking out right now. And
Jenn, holy shit, I know what she is going through.
When Michael first started dating Ben I told him that under no circumstances
did I want him dating Ben. He didn't listen to me of course. As a matter
of fact he was angry with me and told me to stay the fuck out of his life.
I almost lost him. Now Jenn must be feeling like
she is losing Justin.
Michael must feel like his world has been turned upside down. First Vic,
then Ben and now Brian, Michael has experienced far too much of this illness
to last him forever. How will he deal with this? Well of course he will try
to stand by Brian. But Brian isn't going to make it easy for anyone to stand
by him. He is going to push them all away. I bet he hasn't even told his
mother yet. Hell it took him 30 years to tell her he is gay. He never has
been one to open up to his mommy. And she is a bitchy little thing.
Not very open and accepting. Well it is probably
best he not tell her. She would just tell him he deserved it. And Lord knows
he doesn't need to hear that now.
Brian is going to need a mother now. I guess I will fill those shoes once
again. I have been more of a mother to him in the last 16 years than
Joanie has. He ate dinner here every night. Spent
every waking second here and came to me when he came out. Hell I couldn't
be his mother more if I had shit him out. Now my heart is breaking like a
mother's. I will give him his space to deal with it for awhile. But then
I am going to make sure he takes his meds. Hell he eats at the diner more
than anywhere. So I can ride his case there. Hell I live to annoy Brian
Kinney.
Sunshine is going to need somewhere to sleep when Brian throws him out on
his cute little bubble butt again. And he will. But I have no doubt that
that persistent little kid will work his way right back into the inner sanctuary
of Brian Kinney. Brian never could say no to Justin and stick with it. Hell
he loves that boy more than he loves his Prada
shoes. Justin and Gus, his two little boys. What
he doesn't realize is how grown up Sunshine is now. Shit most days I think
that Sunshine is the adult and Brian is the kid. Sunshine is going to need
all the strength he can muster to survive what Brian is about to throw at
him. But if anyone can it would be Justin. He is
so much stronger than they give him credit for.
Love is what will get Brian through this. His friends,
his family. That is what he needs now whether he likes it or not.
And someone who won’t let him feel sorry for
himself. Justin has to be that someone now. I just hope he is strong enough
to survive Brian. But most of all I hope Brian is strong enough to survive
Brian.