Into The LighT
Chapter 4
Acceptance
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EMMETT'S POV
Brian Kinney is positive. Well doesn't that beat all, the untouchable has
fallen. Well I just hope he lets Justin catch him. He has a long road ahead
of him and it isn't a pretty one. And after all he said about Ben. Well now
he knows how it is here in reality. Well all the tricks in the world aren’t
going to fix this for him.
Justin must be scared to death. He loves that man beyond belief. And he is
the sweetest thing since ice cream. He is going to need support now. He needs
me. I know all about losing someone you love. And I know all about losing
them to AIDS. I know Brian is not sick yet. And I know all about the protocol
but I also know how selfish Brian is. He is going to only do the meds if
he wants to. And knowing him he will just choose to die. Well I won’t
let him. He has Justin to think about. And I won’t let him forget it.
That boy is a catch and Brian had better not forget it. Hell if I didn't
love him so much I'd steal him away.
Michael must be taking this hard as well. We all know how he loves Brian.
Hell if he thought he had half a chance with him he would drop everything.
Oh wait he does that now. But he does have that positively yummy professor.
And who wouldn't want to be taught by him. He is YUMMY. And he loves Mikey.
More than Brian ever could. Or ever would. The only person Brian Kinney loves
is himself, and Justin. But I don’t think even Brian knows that yet.
But Justin does.
Well I am not going to treat him any different. He is still the same super
fuckable stud I know and love. But I would never
tell him that. He would think I was some nelly bottom if I did. Well I am
but I don’t need Brian Kinney reminding me all the time.
I remember when Godiva died. It was Justin who
went with me to the hospice. It was Justin who held me as I cried. Well
now I am going to return the favor. Justin is going to need someone to turn
to. Someone who won’t tell him he is making a mistake. Someone he can
vent to when Brian throws him out. And I will be that someone. I know Brian
is not going to want me to fuss over him. So I will just help out my sweet
Justin.
"I can’t believe Brian actually expected you to help him kick Justin
out? Jesus that man has balls. Like you would just do his
dirty work for him." I look at Michael and I know that he is thinking
the same thing I am. That Brian needs Justin now. But it is hard for Mikey.
He has loved Brian for as long as I can remember. "Well he did and
I didn't. So that is all there is." I know Mikey is hurting now. I can see
it in his eyes. There has to be a way to help. Then he surprises me.
"Well he is not just kicking him out. I am going to make sure Justin
is around to help him. He is the only one who can."
Mikey has finally figured it out. Brian loves Justin. Wow. I never thought
I would see the day.