Into The LighT

Chapter 11

Coming Out of the Dark

Finale

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Justin took Brian by the hand and pulled him to the couch. They had so much to do now. Justin sat down and held Brian to him for awhile before Brian pulled away. He needed to talk to Justin and make him understand that this was not going to be easy.

"Justin we need to talk about this. You need to be completely sure about this. It is not going to be easy living with me and this disease. At any moment I could get sick. At any moment I could give it to you. At any moment I could slip into the darkness and not find my way out. At any moment I could die. You have to be sure you want to go through this. I am not easy to live with on good days. I would never forgive myself if you got sick. I would never forgive myself if you regretted staying with me for one second. I would never forgive myself if I ruined your life. I love you Justin. I love you enough to let you go. " Brian let the tears fall as he spoke to Justin of his love for him.

Justin took Brian's face in his hands and with tears in his own eyes told the man he loved beyond belief of how he felt. "Brian I love you. There is nothing more I want than to spend my life with you. Just because you are positive doesn't mean I will stop loving you. Just because you are positive doesn't mean you will die. Just because you are positive does not mean I will be too. There are many ways for us to love one another. And when you slip into the darkness I will be your light. I won't let you fall. I will hold you. I will support you. I will love you no matter what. I don’t love you for your face or your body, I love you for your soul and your heart. I love you for how you love Gus wholeheartedly. I love you for how you make sure your friends are happy no matter what it costs you. You are my forever Brian. Now let me be yours."

Brian crushed Justin to him then and kissed him with all he had. He knew this boy was more of a man than he ever could hope to be. He looked up to see Lindsay standing in the doorway and by the tears streaming down her cheeks he knew she had heard it all. He knew beyond all else she would be the one to make sure he kept his promise to Justin. She was the one who had made him see how beautiful love could be. She gave him Gus and now she had given him the chance to love Justin. She moved silently out of the room to give them time to be alone in their happiness.

Two days later Justin had moved back into the loft. He was at school when there was a knock at the door. Brian opened it to find Jennifer Taylor standing before him.

"Mrs. Taylor. Come in. Justin is at school. He won’t be back ‘til 5:00. Can I get you a drink?" Brian looked at her to see if he could tell why she was here.

"No Brian I don’t want a drink. I didn't come here to see Justin. I came to talk to you. I want you to know that I am not thrilled with the idea of my son living with you anymore now than I have ever been. But I also want you to know that I have accepted the fact that he loves you. And from what I can see you love him. I just don’t want him hurt. I want you to remember that he is young and has his whole life ahead of him. You are his future. Now it is up to you to make sure it is a happy one. Don't let him down. He trusts you."

"Mrs. Taylor, I love Justin. I want only the best for him. I will give him the world if that is what he wants. I can't promise you he will always be happy. But I will do my best to make sure his life is fulfilled and all his dreams come true. I don't know how long I have with him. But I will go to my grave making him feel loved. He is my light. He is my reason for being. You don't have to worry about his safety. I would never do anything to hurt him. He is strong and brave. He knows his heart and what he wants. He does not take no for an answer. And he is determined. More so than I think either of us know." Brian told her trying to make her see his heart was true.

Later in the week they were all sitting around the dinner table at Lindsay's celebrating life. Brian looked around at his self-made family. He smiled to himself to know he had so much support. Justin saw the smile on his face and smiled back at him. Emmett caught the exchange. "Ok give it up boys. Tell us all how married life is treating you. And spare no details. If you get my drift." Lindsay slapped him on the arm and laughed. Emmett looked shocked. "Well hell even in a relationship Brian Kinney gets laid more than I do."

Brian laughed despite himself. "Well I tell you what Emmett you can have my little black book."

Ted looked up and said. "It would probably be easier for you to carry the phone book around. It wouldn't be as bulky." Brian thought of how nice it was to have things back to normal. They spent the evening playing with Gus and sitting on the couch holding hands and stealing kisses. They said their goodbyes and made their way home in silence.

Later in bed Brian held Justin close and caressed his beautiful face. "Justin are you sure? I can't be the same as it always was. We have to be more careful now." Justin looked deep into Brian's hazel eyes and told him”

No it won’t be the same Brian. It will be better." With that he kissed Brian slowly at first. He deepened his kiss as Brian's hands moved to his cock. Slowly stroking him, Brian felt Justin shiver. He wanted this to be different. This was the first time they had made love since Brian admitted his feelings to Justin. He knew that Justin loved him and just wanted to love him. Brian broke from the kiss and moved to take Justin's cock into his mouth. He loved the feel of his lips around him. And how his cock felt against the back of his throat. There was nothing quite as good as having Justin's cock in his mouth, except maybe his cock up Justin's ass.  He wanted that, no he needed that more than anything now. Sensing that Justin was close to cumming by the way he gripped the sheets and moaned, Brian broke away from him and reached for a condom and the lube. He was scared for the first time in his life. He wanted this to be perfect. Justin turned to look at him and saw the hint of worry in his eyes.

"Brian I am sure. I want you to make love to me. I need to be as close to you as I can. Please. Just take it slow."

As Brian slipped his dick in between his ass cheeks he looked into his eyes and said "Just like the first time." After a night of love making Justin lay with his head on Brian's chest and sighed. He was so happy to be here with Brian. He knew the future was not certain and there were no guarantees. But he also knew that Brian loved him and he loved Brian. That counted for something. Brian leaned in and kissed him passionately. With that kiss Brian knew all was well in his life. With Justin by his side he could finally leave the darkness behind and step out into the light.

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