He said I was just a fuck. That can't be true could it? No, I refuse to believe that. I saw it in his eyes. You lying on your bed. He's just trying to drive me away. He's just afraid of what he might feel. Well I'll show him what he's feeling. Maybe Daphne's right. I just have to make him jealous.

Babylon. What an amazing place. Make him jealous. But look at all these gorgeous guys. How the hell can I do that here? Thank god Daphne's with me for moral support. The two of you watch Brian on the dance floor. Looks like he got his trick for the night. Then you watch him get a second guy.

"Is he going to do both of them?"

"He can do anything he wants." And so can I. You start heading to the dance floor, taking off your shirt.

"What are you doing?" Daphne calls after you.

You're not thinking. You're just doing. You get next to Brian and his tricks and start dancing.

What the hell is the kid trying to do. Tempt me. Well it's not going to work.

One of Brian's tricks has noticed you. You give him your best fuck me now look. He heads over to you. That's one. Now the other one has noticed. C'mon boy, come to papa.

Who the hell does this twink think he is? Moving in on my action. But you can't help but smile. He's got balls to challenge you.

You're the middle of a guy sandwich. They're dancing close to you and touching you. God this is so hot. You saw Brian smile at you. C'mon, think with your head for once Kinney not your dick. You know we were meant for each other.

The kid wants to play ok I'll play.

YES, here he comes.

You dance over and dance with the three of them. Then you use your arms to separate Justin from the other two. Your "tricks" move off and dance with each other and you start dancing with Justin. Take him into your arms. Kiss down his neck.

Brian sweeps you up in his arms. GOTCHA KINNEY. You are so mine.

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You've seen Brian a couple of times so all's right with the world. The sex just keeps getting better and better. You and Daphne are on Liberty Avenue when you spot Brian's friends the lesbians. You haven't seen them since Gus was born. You walk over. "Hey! Hey! How's it goin'?"

Lindsay kind of looks at you funny. "I'm sorry. Do we know you?"

"I'm Justin. Brian's friend. I was there the night Gus was born. I named him."

"Yeah."

Mel remembers "Oh, right. So when Gus ends up pumping gas, we'll have you to thank."

Daphne comes up beside you. You introduce her "This is Daphne."

"Hi, I'm not a lesbian, but I-I-I'm a big fan."

Mel's got Gus and you take a close look at him. "He's gotten so big already."

"Oh, well you would, too, if all you did was sleep and eat all day." Mel says, getting a little friendlier.

"Huh, he does." Daphne says with a knowing look at Justin.

You just can't get enough of Gus. It's like your parental instincts are kicking in. "He's, like, the cutest baby I've ever seen. If you ever need a babysitter-"

Lindsay speaks up real fast. "Don't say that unless you mean it."

"And if you need any help carrying stuff to the car, I'd be glad to be of assistance." Lindsay passes you a bunch of shopping bags before you can change your mind.

You're at their house and just relaxing and talking. Lindsay is feeding Gus. You realize what a great drawing it would make. You pull out your sketchpad and start drawing. After awhile Lindsay asked to see it.

"How long have you been drawing?"

"My mom brought me crayons when I was still in the crib. I never stopped."

Lindsay was looking through the rest the rest of your sketchpad. "You know these are really good."

"That's what my mom says."

"Lindsay's an art teacher." Mel adds.

"For someone your age, you have an amazing feel for the human form." She comes to the one of a naked Brian sleeping. "Look at this!" She shows the picture to Mel

"Ah, circumcised. Just like I thought." observes Mel

Lindsay turns her attention to you. "Justin I'd be careful who you showed that to. Because of his fame Brian guards his privacy."

'What fame, for fucking every guy in Pittsburgh."

Mel and Lindsay give each other an oh shit look. "You really don't know about Brian. What he does for a living," asks Lindsay.

"No what about him?"

"It's nothing bad but I think you had better find out on your own."

After spending another hour at their house you head home and get on the computer. You type "Brian Kinney" into a search engine. If he's famous he'll be there. Couple hundred selections show up and you scan the list. Link for a Pittsburgh Pirates photo site. You remember the gym bag that first night with the baseball bats. You click on that. Bunch of action photos load but there's one portrait that's loading slowly. OH MY GOD. It's him. Absolutely no doubt, it's him. You grab your cell phone and call Daphne.

"Daphne get on the Internet and go to this site"

"What's going on?"

"Just go this web address and tell me what you see." You give her the URL.

"It's just some baseball phto...OH MY GOD!"

"What am I going to do?"

"What do you mean, what are you going to do?"

"I'm only 17. If this gets out?"

"Brian knows right."

"Yeah"

"So it sounds like he's ok with it."

"But Daph, It could destroy his career if it gets out. I can't do that."

"Then stop seeing him."

"I love him."

"You're not leaving to many choices. Wait, the whole problem is you're 17."

"Yeah."

"You're 18 in February. Just stop seeing him till then."

"That's almost 4 months." You say making it sound like forever.

"Those are your choices."

You head for the dinner. Debbie will know what to do. But she's not there. You remember her last name and look her up. The address is a couple of blocks away.

"Let me guess, Brian." She says as she sees it's you at the door.

"Yeah."

"Well come on in. I did promise you I'd help clean up the mess. Want something to eat? Why am I asking? You kids are always hungry. Have a seat. I'll make you a sandwich. Look Justin it was just a one nighter.' You hold up 4 fingers. "Four times. Well that's a record."

"I found out who he is. About the Pirates."

"You never knew? I thought everyone knew."

"No, not till today. I'm only seventeen. If it got out, what do I do?"

"Yeah it could cause some problems. Brian knows right?"

"Yeah but I can't do that to him. I'm going to stop seeing him."

"Someone is going to dump Brian. This is a day of firsts"

"I'll leave just till I'm eighteen."

"You have to do what you think is right."

"But what if he..."

"Relax Sunshine, I'm on your side. Between the two of us Brian won't stand a chance. We'll get you two back together. I still have a few tricks up my sleeve where it concerns Brian Kinney."

"Thanks Deb" You finish your sandwich and just talk. You're feeling much better about what you're going to do. You realize Debs going to be a great friend to have.

When it's time to leave she walks you to the door. "Hey Sunshine you keep in touch."

"I will Deb. Thanks for everything fairy god mom." You kiss her on the check.

"You little asshole you made me cry."

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Brian slides the lofts door open and there stands Justin. "You can't come here uninvited like this."

"I know, but... Just give me two minutes. I don't even want to come in."

"Ok. Two minutes." You say against your better judgment.

"I ran into Lindsay and Mel yesterday. They invited me over to their house and we talked."

"You need to stay away from them."

"No, they invited me and they want me to come over again. Lindsay dropped some hints about you. She didn't say who you are but it gave me something to go on."

"I'm going to have to have a talk with Lindsay."

"Don't blame her. Why didn't you tell me?"

"I don't make it a point to go around telling everyone."

"Why did you let me put you in danger like that? You put your whole career at risk because of me."

"I know it was stupid."

"Brian, I have to stay away for now. I know that. But my birthday is in February. Then I'm coming back for you. I promise."

"Don't flatter yourself. What makes you think I'd want you to?"

"Because you didn't slam the door in my face. Because you wouldn't have taken a trick to the hospital and let him name your son. Because I can see it in your eyes that you care for me. I want you to have this. I drew it yesterday." Justin hands you a drawing of Lindsay and Gus. It's fantastic. The kid's got real talent. Then he kisses you on the check and whispers in your ear. "I'm coming back for you, Brian Kinney." Then turns and runs down the stairs. You just stand there looking at the picture and then looking at where Justin had stood.

"I'll be here." You whisper.