Justin’s Mate
Going Straight?
“Hey”
“Brian why are you home so
early?”
“It’s my agency Justin I’m
allowed some time off, you’ve been so busy lately at the studio I thought
you’d be happy to see me.”
“Brian I need to
shower”
“Justin don’t I get a
kiss”
“Please Bri, I’ve been working
in clay I’m covered up to my elbows if I don’t shower soon I’m
going to have to shave my arms.”
“Justin {Brian quickly closes the gap
between them} just one kiss.”
Justin stretches up and gives him a quick
peck on the cheek the sprints away before Brian gets a chance to
inhale. Justin strips off his
clothes and shoves them deep into the hamper as far as they will go and then
quickly enters the bathroom. He
lets the water run as hot as he can stand and gets in.
Justin slumps to the shower floor he was
feeling confused, he didn’t know what to do or what he was
feeling. His studio mate, they
had so much in common, about the same age, Rocky a little older, about them
same height Justin a little taller.
Both golden blond and
blue-eyed. They complimented
each other artistically where Justin excelled in drawing and painting,
Rocky’s forte in clay and plaster.
They knew each other casually as freshmen
at PIFA and then both experienced a forced
leave. Justin had his Stockwell
thing; Rocky had a bad car accident leaving Rocky almost totally hearing
impaired. When they finally got
back to college they were somehow drawn to each
other. Justin coached Rocky in
sketching and Rocky assisted Justin in working the
clay. While Justin’s hand
had recovered fully enough to draw almost endlessly he still experienced
cramps and stiffness when he had to knead the
clay. That’s when Rocky
would help. They formed a bond
and now maybe something closer.
Justin was confused, worried and
afraid. Shit, the water was running
cold. Justin didn’t realize
he was in the shower for so long.
When he got out Brian was standing there
holding Justin’s overalls and inhaling
deeply. He looked angry, very
angry. Justin stood there dripping
unable to speak, move or take his eyes of his angry jealous
lover.
“Who is he Justin?” as Brian inhaled
the scent of the overalls again.
“Bri I swear there’s no one else
please let me…”
Brian stopped him with a
glare.
“I don’t recognize this
cologne, even you wouldn’t fuck someone who
wears cheap cologne.”
“No Brian please it’s not what
you think”
The tears started to well up in Justin’s
eyes and he swore to himself he hadn’t done anything wrong he wasn’t
going to cry. As hard as he tried
every time he looked into Brian’s eyes the tears
started.
“Justin
aren’t we
happy? I give you everything
you want; I tell you I love you everyday.
Why?”
“No Bri no please believe
me”
The tears started to stream down his
face.
“Save your tears they
wont help you this
time. I want the truth and I
want it now, you owe me that!”
Brian shouted at him.
“Brian
I…”
Justin was now sobbing so hard he couldn’t
breathe and he started to shiver
uncontrollably. Brian dropped
the overalls and grabbed the first robe he could lay his hands on it was
his. He wrapped the shivering
sobbing boy and held him close.
Justin was having difficulty breathing and Brian feared it would lead
to an asthma attack. Brian
couldn’t stay angry he realized Justin was in pain with
conflict. Brian knew the signs
so he picked up the sobbing boy who looked lost in Brian’s large robe
and carried him to the bed.
Sitting on the edge of the bed with Justin
in his lap Brian started to rock just a little to sooth Justin and held him
tight. The sobbing slowly
subsided.
“Justin did you fall in
love?”
In between sobs,
“no.”
“Do you want to leave
me?”
“No”
“Okay” Brian let out a sigh; he
didn’t realize he was holding his breath.
“Can you tell me about
it?”
“I’ll
try”
“Name first”
“Rocky”
“A
bear?”
“No”, Justin managed a little
chuckle.
“A twink
then”
“No”
“What’s
left? Justin no please don’t
tell me, I couldn’t take if you bottomed for, if he’s, oh god
no.”
Now it was Brian’s turn to cry at the
thought that another man was fucking his Justin.
“No Brian not ever, I would never bottom
for anyone else please believe
me.”
Justin started crying again seeing Brian’s
tears. The two held onto each
other until both calm enough to continue.
“Justin you’re killing me please
tell me what’s happening?”
“Brian Rocky’s a
girl”
Brian nearly choked on his own
spit.
“Justin did I hear you correctly
you’ve been having sex with a girl, a
woman?” Brian new he was
capable of it he remembered what happened between Justin and
Daphne. But he didn’t think
he would loose Justin to a woman.
“No, no sex, we haven’t even
kissed.”
Brian could only think
“yet”.
“Justin do you want to sleep
with her, be honest, do
you?”
“I don’t
know”
“Justin can we lay down my legs are
starting to fall sleep”
The lovers snuggled together in bed, Justin
still wrapped up in Brian’s robe.
Brian had taken off his suit jacket but still fully clothed, as he
got comfortable he loosened his tie.
“Justin can you tell me
now?”
“Rocky, Rachel is her real name, we
met when I first started at PIFA, she was away the same time I was, a car
accident. We returned to school
about the same time too. You
know I felt a little awkward when I got back she did too the accident left
her deaf. We kinda
bonded. She’s real good
with sculptures, clay and plaster, you know I don’t do well in that
medium and she doesn’t draw well.
We help each other. I
pose for her she poses for me. I
help her with sketching and she helps me with the
clay. My hand starts to hurt
when I work the clay.”
“Why didn’t you tell me it still
bothers you?”
“It doesn’t when I draw only when
I knead clay for too long; Rocky then helps me.”
“I see”
“We decided to share the studio, share
the expense and we work well together.
My loud music doesn’t bother her; we have a weird way of
communicating. I’m at one
end closer to the windows and she’s at the other when I want her attention
I stamp my foot. She feels the
vibration and then answer
me.”
“No wonder you get along someone who
can put up with your horrendous music must be a
gem.”
“Brian”
“Does she feel the same way about
you?”
“I’m not sure she knows I’m
gay and I think she has a boy friend, it’s just when we stand close
to work on something its like…”
“Electricity?”
“Yeah how do you
know?”
“Lindsey”
“Lindsey?”
“Uh huh”
“Bri I know you two had a relationship
in college but I didn’t know you still have such strong feelings for
her.”
“Why do you think Mel and I still
don’t get a long? Mel has
never gotten over that I slept with
Lindsey. A side from Lindsey
being Gus’ mom and I’d do anything for them we’re both a little
hung up on each other. Given
the right circumstances it probably could happen
again.”
Both men let out a long
sigh.
“So what do we do about
this?”
“Justin you have to decide, I made
that decision a long time ago. I
value my relationship with Linds and I wont do anything
to screw it up. She’s happy
with Mel and they are the best parents for
Gus. Why would I jeopardize that
even if I wanted to fuck Linds, we have too much to
loose. Sometimes a man has to
make a sacrifice for the right reasons.”
“Brian you never cease to amaze
me”
“Yeah that’s me amazing but that
doesn’t help you Sunshine does it; you have to decide about
Rocky.”
“Do you want to meet her
Bri?”
“No not yet not until you make
up your
mind. I
don’t think I could take it.”
“I’m sorry
Brian”
“I know but you should have said
something. I don’t like
getting angry like that I still have trouble controlling my
temper.”
“Yeah tell me about it you scared
me.”
“I scared me; the thought of loosing
you. Justin I’m not as strong
as you are, I know you can survive without me but I can’t survive without
you.”
“Brian that’s not true you’ve
come a long way.”
“Sigh…well maybe I’d survive
but not as well as you that much I do know.”
“Bri I care a lot about Rocky but I
don’t thinks its love it’s just
something.”
“You’ll have to work it out for
yourself Justin this is something I can’t help you with; please try
to do it soon for my sake.
I’ll just go crazy not knowing; come to think about it I may
have to warn Cynthia, poor woman.”
“I promise
Bri”
“No Justin don’t make this kind
of promise just say you’ll work on it.”
“Ok, I’ll work on
it”
“Good now should I call out for
dinner?”
“Brian wait, do you still love
me?”
“Baby I’ll never stop loving
you”
“Can you make love to me
now?
“Do you want
me?”
“Yes Bri yes I need you inside me
please.”
Brian got up and slowly removed his clothes
his eyes never leaving Justin’s.
Justin watched his lover strip for him and his cock sprang to life
thick, hard and getting red. Brian
grinned at his lover’s sudden arousal his own was there the moment Justin
asked the question. Justin started
to wriggle his arms out of Brian’s robe, “leave it on Justin I
want it to smell like you.”
Justin moaned and his cock began to
leak. Brian crawled up and hovered
over Justin. Brian kissed him
as Justin wrapped his arms and legs around Brian.
Brian made love to Justin slowly, whispering
into the young man’s ear “I love you” over and
over. Justin hung onto Brian
and then began the babble. The
lovers came together.
They laid huddle together for some
time.
“Justin this is me, all that I have
to give you, the rest of the stuff, the material stuff is bullshit; this
is what I am. I love you with
my body and my soul. I’m
yours to keep or not, my life is yours or not.”
Brian kissed Justin softly then got up to
shower. Justin lay there for
a few moments then joined Brian in the
shower. The lovers hugged and
cried as the warm water washed away the sweat, cum and
tears.
Justin made his
decision.
The next few days were difficult for Justin
he couldn’t avoid Rocky they had too many classes together and then
the studio time. After several
days Rocky approached Justin.
“Justin what is
it? I can’t stand this silence
from you.”
Justin looked at her, in her eyes the blue
mirrored his own and the tears leaked out.
“Justin did you and your
boyfriend have a fight?’
“No not really” Rocky could read
lips and Justin was learning to sign.
“Then
what?”
“I have feelings for you and I’m
confused about it”
“Oh” Rocky turned around and started
to go back to her corner of the studio.
Justin followed and tapped her on the shoulder.
“Rocky I don’t want to jeopardize
our friendship but I need to know how you feel about
me”
“Justin you’re a good friend and
a wonderful artist I care about you but I have no other feelings than
friendship.”
“But what about you know when we work
on something closely it’s almost magic.”
“Justin you’re confusing the rush
you get when you create a piece of art for
love. It’s almost the same
feeling but think about it there’s a big
difference.” Justin knew
what Rocky meant but never thought about it in that way.
“Justin I’m your first real studio
mate aren’t I”
“Yes I’ve shared but not like
this besides they were painters it felt different.”
“That’s because it was more like
competition not like us, we compliment not compete and we can help each other
without reservation.”
“Oh”
“Justin you should have said something
instead of keeping this all inside; this happened to me
before.”
“It did?”
“Yeah I shared with someone a while
ago another painter and I thought what we were feeling was love but he set
me straight. Then we couldn’t
work together after that. I
wasn’t going to share with you but when I learned you were gay I figured
I was safe.”
“I’m sorry you don’t want
to quit do you?”
“No but you have to explain something
to me I don’t have any other gay friends so I didn’t know you could
be attracted to a woman.”
“Yes”, Justin started to
laugh.
“What’s so
funny?”
“I guess I will have to set you straight
about a few things”
Then the two blonds both started to laugh
and had a long talk. Afterwards
the tension gone they got back to work as
friends. Justin realized the
‘electricity’ he felt was due to the work they accomplished and
not because of anything else. After
a long productive day he asked Rocky if she wanted to meet Brian and she
consented. Justin called Brian
and arranged to meet for diner later that night.
Brian and Justin waited for Rocky to arrive
at the small bar at the restaurant.
Brian immediately knew her as she came through the door almost a twin
for his Sunshine. She was pretty
but no one was as beautiful as his angel.
She approached the pair and Justin introduced
Brian. Justin’s jaw nearly
hit the floor as Brian perfectly signed
hello. Rocky signed back and
turned to Justin, “You never said your boyfriend could
sign.” Justin replied, “I
didn’t know” and looked at Brian with
disbelief. Brian
explained…
“I took classes in college and I try
to keep in practice. I have several
hearing impaired clients. It
helped me to win some big accounts especially when I was competing with another
agency, I’d win them over when I signed; Justin shut your mouth you’ll
catch flies.”
Rocky burst out laughing even Brian
chuckled. Justin just remained
stunned. Brian quipped,
“he’s never stayed this quiet
before.”
“I know he’s always babbling on
about something, I’m very happy when he puts on his music that’s
the only time I can get any real work
done. Lately we get in the studio
I turn the stereo on first this way he won’t talk and I don’t have
to keep looking up at him.”
This time Brian laughed, Justin remained
silent and blushed.
The maitre d’ called them to be
seated.
The meal was delicious and the three had
a very nice time. Justin
couldn’t get over how relaxed Brian was and how
charming. He thought Brian would
feel uncomfortable or worse be rude but Brian was being warm and
friendly. Justin could swear
that Brian even liked Rocky. Justin
almost felt a little pang of jealousy as Rocky and Brian would sign, Justin
was still learning so he didn’t quite get all of what they were
communicating.
By the end of the evening Brian was sure
he had nothing to worry about.
Rocky had no intension of taking away his Justin and Justin was more
relaxed than he had been in weeks.
The evening ended early the blonds had class
in the morning and Brian a breakfast meeting.
When the boys got home and settled down
for the night Justin cuddled close to Brian and Brian wrapped his arms around
his blond. “Here it
comes”, thought Brian.
“Brian”
“Yes baby”
“You were so nice to Rocky, thank
you”
“No need to thank me Sunshine she’s
a very nice young woman.”
“And you’re okay with me sharing
the studio with her?”
“Justin are
you and she okay?”
“Yeah we had a long talk this afternoon,
kinda set me straight about things.
She told me I mistaking the rush of when we create something for
love.”
“Perceptive woman; as long as
that was the only thing she set you straight
on.”
“Brian I’m here and still
queer. I’m sorry I hurt
you.”
“Baby as long as you love me I’ll
be ok.”
“I love you
Bri”
“Me too Sunshine, just one more thing
before you show me how much you love me.”
“What’s that
Bri?”
“If I’m going to have to smell
Rocky on you we must get her better perfume that stuff she wears is going
to kill me.”
“I’ll work on it
Bri”
For the next couple of hours Justin showed
Brian how much he loved him. The
lovers then slept arms and legs entwined, heats beating as
one.
Sabina
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