No Wonder
Part
7
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For the next couple of days, Brian replayed his conversation with
Debbie in his mind. Are you
too much of a coward to do it?
The problem was he didnt
know. Loving Justin was not the
problem, of that he was sure. It
was the fear that held him back.
Fear that he couldnt sustain a
relationship. Fear that he would
hurt Justin again. There was
also Gus, Jenny, and Daphne to
consider. If he took some sort
of plunge with Justin, he would be dumped right in the middle of an existing
family. Justin, Daphne, and Jenny
had been a family since the day Jenny was born. Brian didnt know if
he could or should intrude on that.
Could he handle such a big change? Sure he was raising Gus, but they
were more like two bachelors living it
up. Well
not exactly,
but their arrangement wasnt a traditional family unit.
Gus was another consideration.
Uprooting his son wasnt a really good
idea. The only family Gus had
ever known was here. How could
he take his son away from that?
There really seemed to be no
solution. Brian decided to mull
it over a little longer, but deep down his mind was already made
up. There was no way for him
and Justin to be together.
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Sitting in the kitchen drinking his morning coffee, Justin was so
lost in thought that he didnt hear Daphne come up behind
him.
Good morning!
Justin was so startled, he spilled his
coffee. Christ,
Daph, you scared the shit out of
me!
I didnt realize I needed to be so careful in my own
house.
Sorry, I was just thinking.
About Brian?
Yeah.
I dont think its going to work
out.
Why not, I thought you were getting things cleared
up.
Yes and no.
Thats an answer.
Location, location,
location. Neither one
of us is in any position to relocate.
That makes it a little bit hard on a
relationship.
Doesnt Brian have business
here? I mean, I thought he was
in town on business when he found you.
Yeah, he does some of his business here, but his life is in
What is so funny?
Im just remembering something my mom once told
me. She said she had to consider
the needs of her entire family and not just my
desires. I remember feeling so
betrayed by her when she told me that, but now, I finally understand
it. I need to think of you and
Jenny, not just what I want and Brian has Gus to
consider.
Justin, I already told you
Daphne, dont. I
appreciate that you would be willing to step aside in order for Brian and
I to be together, but its not going to
happen. We are a
family. Youre the mom,
Im the dad, and we have a bratty seven year
old.
A voice screamed from upstairs, I heard that,
Daddy.
The two parents laughed. Jenny was definitely their
daughter.
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Several days later, Brian was reading the paper when Gus came into
the living room.
Hey,
Sonny-boy!
Hi,
Dad. When are Justin and
Jenny coming back?
The question surprised Brian. He wasnt expecting Gus to cling
to Justin so quickly. I
dont know Gus. Its
hard to travel back and forth between
Why cant Justin and Jenny live
here?
Because Justin, Jenny, and Jennys mom
live in
Can we move to
Gus, would you really want to leave everyone
here? This is your home. Our
family is here.
Dad, its not like we would never see them.
Gus, its not that
easy. You dont just pick
up and move on a whim, no matter how much you might want
to.
So are we just never gonna see them again? Tears were
welling up in the younger hazel eyes.
Brian rolled his eyes. His son was almost as big of a drama princess
as Justin. Of course,
were going to see them again but were just not going to be together
as a
family.
The tears were still in Guss eyes, but he nodded his
understanding.
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The next few weeks were extremely
awkward. The two men spoke almost
daily on the phone, but their conversations were
superficial. No mention was made
about their relationship or their future.
Their jobs and their kids usually dominated the phone calls. Both
men were content to hide what they were
feeling. It was easier to not
say anything than to risk exposing too much.
One night after finishing his phone call with Brian, Justin came to
a decision. He couldnt
take it anymore. His heart ached
every time he spoke to Brian.
Sometimes he found himself wanting to pack everyone up and go back
to
Daphne walked in from her overnight shift at the hospital and found
Justin at the dining room table.
Tears streaked his cheeks and he looked like he hadnt
slept.
What the hell happened to you?
Looking up with unshed tears in his eyes, I have to end it with
Brian.
What the fuck are you talking about?
Daph, I cant do it like
this. Every time I talk to him,
it breaks my heart. We have this
half relationship. I cant
do it, its too hard.
You are such a coward.
You sacrificed everything for Brian when you were
seventeen. You lived a life of
hell, made yourself into a man that you can be proud of and now that you
have the man you love back in your life, youre going to throw it away
because things arent going your
way. That is fucked
up!
Daphne was met with blue eyes shooting sparks, First of all,
I never expected to have Brian back in my
life. I made my choices and I
lived with them. But now, its
like a tease. Hes so close,
but I cant reach him.
Im a man now, not some seventeen year
old with a crush. I have a family
to consider.
Dont make me your
scapegoat. I refuse to be your
excuse for not taking a chance.
What should I do,
Daph?
Close up the galleries, pack up Jenny, and go back to
Have you even talked to Brian about it?
No, we avoid the topic because we both know its
impossible.
Its only impossible if you make it
impossible.
Well, Miss Know-it-all, you tell me what to
do.
Daphne just glared at her best friend, but she knew what she had to
do. Knowing that relocation would
be hardest on Justin, she decided to pay Brian Kinney a
visit.
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Pulling her rental car up to Brians house, Daphne took a chance
that he would be home on a Saturday.
Seeing a car in the driveway, Daphne assumed Brian was
home. Knocking sharply, Daphne
was quickly standing face to face with Brian.
Daphne?
What are you doing here? Is
everything ok?
I really dont want to talk to you on the
porch. Can I come
in?
Annoyed at how pushy the young woman could be, Brian just gestured
her into the house. Once inside
the living room, Brian started questioning Daphne
again.
What are you doing here?
Ignoring his question, Daphne started looking around the house,
This is a really great place.
Pushing his tongue into his cheek and suppressing his temper, he
questioned the young woman again, Spill it,
Daphne.
Staring the older man in the eyes, Daphne lit into him, Do you
realize how close you are to losing him?
What are you talking about?
I came home from work yesterday morning and found Justin in
the dining room. He had been
up all night and was crying. He
told me he was going to end it.
What the fuck?
He cant handle this long distance, half relationship you
two seem to be in the middle of.
Its breaking his heart Brian.
Do you think its easy for me,
either?
I dont know. Brian, you tell me.
Its killing me too.
However, neither one of us is in any position to do anything about
it.
Thats bullshit and you know
it.
Theres a lot of reasons Justin cant
come back to
So I am supposed to uproot my life?
He has valid reasons for not coming back
here. You have no valid reasons
to go to
You have no idea what you are talking
about.
I know for a fact that your last three clients came out of
All Brian could do was glare at her, so Daphne continued. You
could be an amazing success in
I cant uproot my son.
This is the only home Gus has ever known.
Gus wants to come to
Excuse me. How the fuck would you know
that?
He told Jenny.
Jenny?
Yeah, they talk all the time.
Havent you noticed your
phone bills? Brian just
shrugged. So the only thing
is you. Do you love
him?
For a moment, Brian didnt answer. Daphne just stared at
him. Yes, I
do.
But youre scared?
Fuck you, Daphne. You dont know the half of
it.
You are so fucking scared.
Scared to commit to someone, scared to
try. Well thats
fine, Brian. But if you dont
do something, youre going to lose him.
Daphne stood up, and walked out the front
door. All Brian could do was
watch her leave.
Slumping down onto the couch, all Brian could do was
think.
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Justin and Daphne were hanging out at the house on a Saturday
afternoon. Daphne never told
Justin about her trip to
Have you talked to Brian lately?
Daph, I told you I was ending
things.
Just like
that? You just cut him
off? How could you do that?
Thats not fair to him.
Shouting at his best friend, Daphne, its
over! He obviously
Justins words were interrupted by the ringing of the
doorbell. Rising from the couch,
Justin answered the door and found Brian and Gus standing
there.
Hey
Sunshine! Do you think
you can put us up while Gus and I look for a place
here?
No words came from Justin. He just collapsed into Brians
arms.
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