Absolution

Chapter 12

Brian's POV

Pulling up into the church parking lot I am a bundle of nerves. Justin gently puts his hand on mine as I park the car. I lay my head on the steering wheel and lose myself in my emotions. I am mentally beating myself up about how weak I am. This morning I was going to come clean and tell my grandfather, but I just couldn't. It's funny how it is so much easier for me to tell a church full of gawkers about being gay, but I can't even tell my own Grandfather. He is sick and I can't hurt him like that. How in the fuck could I cause him more pain?

I can hear the sounds of teenagers in the parking lot laughing and goofing around. Justin sits silently next to me, which I am thankful for. It's not his words I need right now, just his support, which he shows with every caress and touch. It's amazing how he knows this without me having to say a word. I let out a labored breath when I hear a knock on my window.

Justin whispers softly; "It's a young blonde woman with another dark haired girl."

I lift my head slowly to try and prevent it from spinning. I slowly roll down my window and put on my genuine fake smile. I look at the sweet young woman I have always considered a good friend and someone the youth have always looked up to.

"Hello Lindsay," I try to give her my most sincere smile which she returns with one tinged with concern. I take a deep breath already dreading tonight, and look over to Lindsay's friend, "Hello Melanie; it's good to see you again."

Melanie smiles graciously; "You too Brian."

"How can I help you young ladies?"

Lindsay laughs; "Brian, I'm only two years younger than you." She slaps my shoulder playfully then leans into the car speaking softly; "Brian please tell me what's going on," I can see the tears welling in her eyes, "I tried calling you last night. I don't believe anything they are saying. You're my friend Brian, I know you would never do those things."

Her hand is resting on the car door and I gently cover it with my own; "Thank you Linds I hope you feel the same after what I have to say tonight."

She pats my face; "Bri you should know me by now, we grew up together remember? So are you going to introduce us to your friend?" She is wearing a sly smile and I wonder if she knows.

I'm not sure what to say then I feel Justin shift next to me and open his door. I'm shocked when he walks in front of the car and over to the driver's side. Justin smiles at the two young ladies and holds out his hand; "Hi, nice to met you Lindsay and Melanie. I'm Justin Taylor."

Lindsay's eyes widen in surprise; "Oh, you're that young artist I read about. Your work is fabulous."

He ducks his head smiling and blushing slightly; "You read that?" I notice a slight wink from Lindsay and a silent conversation between the three of them

I get out of the car and Lindsay lets out a giggle as she puts her hand on my shoulder as she leans over to whisper in my ear; "I guess you have something interesting to tell the old biddies in there don't you?" I stand in shock as she and Melanie walk away laughing.

I give Justin a questioning look as he laughs and then leans into my ear much like Lindsay had just done; "Brian they are lesbians."

I raise my brow; "What!?"

He clears his throat; "About 6 months ago my college submitted an article about my accident and artwork to the Liberty Tribune."

I raise my brow yet again; "You mean the homosexual tribune?"

He laughs at my innocent naivety; "That's what straight people call it, among other things."

Then it really hits me; "Lindsay and Mel are gay?"

"Uh yeah Brian, they are."

I lean up against my car; "Fuck, I can't believe it, but I guess it does make sense."

"I'm so proud of you Brian. You're not hiding like your friends. You're embracing who you are." He looks me directly in the eyes; "That is the only way to truly live." He looks so handsome right now all I want to do is kiss him but this is not the time or place. He just smiles at me knowingly as he playfully bats his eyes.

I push away from my car and stand up feeling the dread whirl inside. I pat Justin on the shoulder; "Well I guess I should go in and wade the water."

He nods his head swallowing hard; "Brian are you sure you don't want me to come in with you now? I'm sure Daphne can find us."

I smile weakly; "I'm sure Justin. I need to do this;" I lower my voice to just above a whisper, "If I stand by you one more second I will come out in an entirely different way than I have planned. Honestly I don't think my congregation is ready to see us fucking," I smirk at him.

He smiles brightly then speaks in a falsetto tone; "Honey we could take photos. They would look lovely in the church directory. I'm sure the congregation will love all the different poses. My personal favorite is the..."

I cut him off mid sentence. I'm not sure what comes over me but I have to kiss him. He is so cute when he's being silly. I scan the area to make sure no one is around and grab his shirt as he lets out a surprised squawk and laughs with glee.

Quickly I fumble with my keys until I find the correct one. I open one of the Sunday school rooms and push him inside shutting the door quickly. As much as I want to touch him I am frightened to do it here. Who knows what will happen? Will lightening strike us down? Will the Apocalypse come?

Justin scrunches and wiggles his nose putting his hand on my chest as he playfully pushes me up against the door cocking his head; "So, now that you have me in here, what are you planning on doing?"

Suddenly I feel a lump in my throat; "To be honest I'm really not sure."

Seductively Justin leans into my ear; "Don't worry, I'll think of something." His warm breath on my tender skin sends jolts of pleasure to my groin as he gives me a quick kiss while he unbuttons my pants. Before I know it he is dropping to his knees.

"Justin! What are you doing?" I say in complete shock

He looks up at me with a twinkle in his blue eyes and I feel myself being drawn into him. Justin tugs on my pants slowly and shrugs his shoulders; "Just thought I would show you some relaxation techniques before you go up to the pulpit," he grins showing me his pearly whites.

I place my hands on the sides of his face and return his smile as I guide him down onto dick. He takes me into his warm mouth and I gasp as I throw my head back in passion. Suddenly I am struck with amusement at my situation. Across the wall from me is a painting of Jesus sitting down talking with small children. There are pictures of sheep made with cotton balls pasted all over the room with Bible verses written in childish handwriting underneath; 'The Lord is My Shepherd.' Every section of the wall has a different picture and a different slogan on a rainbow that says 'Jesus Keeps His Promises,' and that is when I realize what I am going to do for the rest of my life. I can't help but let out a chuckle.

Justin looks at me questioningly but I just run my fingers through his hair reassuring him that everything is all right. I lose myself in him once more as he continues to work on my cock. My body tenses then I release my seed into my lover's waiting mouth. Justin stands up grinning from ear to ear as he pulls my pants back up. He kisses me and I moan when I taste myself on him.

"That was hot," I say making him blush.

"Amazing!" He responds. "So you going to tell me what was so funny?"

I kiss Justin softly on the lips then turn him around to face the wall, pulling him close to me, my chest firmly pressing against his back He shivers slightly as I place a warm kiss on his ear. I reach over his shoulder and point to the pictures, chuckling at the absurdity of the situation; "I never realized how much being a minister is like advertising. Basically it's just selling a product."

He turns back into me running his hands up my chest and shines his bright smile my way;

"I think you should do it Brian. You should go into advertising. You'd be totally great at it."

Smiling I lean down and capture his lips with mine; "I like the way you think Mr. Taylor," I kiss his forehead; "Well now that you've helped me relax I guess I should go throw myself at the hungry wolves."

When I start to move away Justin grabs onto my hand; "Brian it will all turn out for the best. I think you are very strong for doing this.'

Looking down at him I nod my head; "Thanks." We walk out and lock the door behind us. I can hear the praise and worship starting and a part of me is thankful I missed having to greet everyone beforehand. I quickly squeeze Justin's hand; "I'll meet you inside." As I enter the church I see a familiar young woman smile and wave to Justin. I smile at her and then disappear inside, ready to face my new life.

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