Days in Avalon

Days in Avalon

Author's Note: It's dangerous to be up in the wee hours of the morning and listening to my cd's. Was listening to Days in Avalon by Richard Marx when I was inspired to write this piece.

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Sirius James Malfoy-Potter was going through the contents of his father's study, deciding what to keep and what was going out. It has been a month since Draco passed away peacefully in his sleep. As it so happens, he passed away on the day of the 25th anniversary of his other father's sudden death. As he admonished himself for going down that depressing path, he found a sealed envelope hidden in the back of one of the drawers in Draco's desk. Opening the envelope, he found a tear stained letter dated the tenth anniversary of Harry's death. Sitting down in the leather chair, he proceeded to read the letter.

Dearest Harry,

Today marks ten years that you suddenly left our lives. When we found out the truth of what happened, needless to say we were all furious with you for keeping secret the severity of your health problems. I wanted to revive you and kill you all over again for your damnable Gryffindor pride. Why you stubborn jackass did you keep quiet?

Oh, for so long I was so angry at the world and too wrapped up in my grief to give a damn about anything else. I've lost count of the number of times I've either gone out or stayed at home and got completely smashed. For the longest time, I foolishly believed that you didn't love me or our son. I even made the mistake once of saying that to Hermione when she came over for a visit. You know, even now she's still got quite a right hook. She then proceeded to dress me down about how stupid and selfish I was being. I, in my old Malfoy persona, just sneered at her and told her to go fuck off.

All I knew was that you left me. My redeeming angel was gone. What reason did I have to go on living life?

You ask what finally made me decide to live?

Well, it was Blaise. I'm guessing after our encounter, Hermione fire called Blaise and told him what was going on. He found me in one of the bars in Knockturn Alley during one of my many binges. Walked up to me and knocked me on my ass with one well aimed punch. He then proceeded to rip me a new one. I'll never forget the one thing he said,

"Do you want to make your son an orphan? Have you even stopped to consider how all this is affecting that sweet boy?"

He then just sneered at me and left. I just remained on the floor stunned silent.

How could I forget about the best thing that came from our time together. Sirius James lost one daddy and was well on the way to losing the other one. I also realized that I refused to share any of my memories with him of you and the fun we had. It was then I really realized that I needed to get out of this funk and live for our son. He was the reason I needed to go on living.

After getting myself together and returning home, I found Sirius in the library. Went up to him and grabbed him into a bear hug, told him I was so sorry for being the world's biggest ass and that I loved him. He just looked at me with such love and acceptance in his eyes. We both broke down crying and just held on to each other for dear life.

Next day, I decided to show him the photo album of you and me and the different adventures we had. As I walked up to his room, I heard this song playing in his room. Leave it to our son to have a collection of muggle CD's. It was perfect in that it was exactly what I would've told you if I had had a chance to say goodbye to you and to reassure you. It goes something like this.

I'm nearing the end

Or the beginning

Whichever one finds me

And I'm counting the tears

And the blessings

That I'll have behind me

I could not ask for more

You were the one thing worth livin' for

I will remember days in Avalon

I will remember nights in your arms

I will remember days in Avalon

And I will recall every moment

Of my days in the sun

As I embrace the twilight

The memories surround me

I would have been lost

Sure as the rain comes

If you hadn't found me

Each breath I breathe is for you

I never knew how to live 'til you taught me to

I will remember days in Avalon

I will remember nights in your arms

I will remember days in Avalon

And I will recall every moment

Of my days in the sun

I will run through the door

I'm not afraid anymore

And the light that I see is your eyes

Once again I'll be whole

I will live in your soul

Longer then the rest of our lives

I will remember days in Avalon

I will remember nights in your arms

I will remember days in Avalon

And I will recall every moment

Of my days in the sun

(Days in Avalon by Richard Marx)

It's funny. After that day when I first heard the song, whenever I get down now…I just put on that CD and listen to it and look through the photo album. Who ever would've thought that Draco Malfoy would listen to a muggle CD. Oh yes, I can just see you rolling your eyes at that and then smacking me in the head.

I'll always love you Harry and I still miss you greatly. That will never change. I do promise however to remember those good times more often as well as telling Sirius about them.

Your one and only,

Draco

By the time Sirius finished the letter, tears were streaming down his face. He got up and went over to the entertainment center and put on a CD. Days in Avalon started playing. Sirius walked back to the desk and looked at the photo of Draco and Harry together.

"This one is for both of you ,Father and Dad. Hope you're making new memories now that the both of you have been reunited in the afterlife." said Sirius.

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