Bleeding Emotions

Chapter 12

Brian slammed the door to Justin's apartment shut before pushing the blond against the wall and attacking his lips with an intensity he had never felt before. He pushed his tongue into Justin's willing mouth as the older man clawed at his back. Justin pulled Brian's shirt off and smashed their lips back together. It was only when he saw the blood staining Brian's shirt out of the corner of his eye that he stopped.

"Wait, wait," he panted, pushing the young brunet an arm's length away. Justin studied Brian's face intently. His eyes were wild, and still brimmed with tears. Dried blood stained bits of his bronzed skin. He wanted to take care of this younger man, but at the same time he wanted to crawl into his strong arms and be protected.

Maybe they could save each other.

Justin pulled Brian into his bedroom and pushed him down on the bed. He ran into the bathroom and returned with a warm, wet cloth. He took Brian's chin in his hand and tenderly cleaned his wounds. He wiped off all the blood and tears.

"There, it doesn't look so bad after you're all cleaned up." Brian winced as he ran the cloth over the small gash above his temple. "Fucking asshole couldn't ruin your gorgeous face."

Justin knew he had said the wrong thing when a tear slipped from Brian's slightly swollen eye and traveled down his cheek, dying on his full lips. Justin leaned down and kissed it away.

Brian clutched onto the smaller man and pulled him down onto the bed. He relieved the blond of his tee shirt before rolling them over. Justin didn't realize his cheeks were wet with tears as well until he tasted salt.

Their hearts were cracking, breaking bit by bit. Furious kisses and harsh breaths masked the pain.

This was a form of pain management neither of them had ever used.

Brian's fingers fumbled with the button and zipper or Justin's jeans. The brunet sniffled as he pulled them down along with his underwear. He got off of the bed and stripped out of his remaining clothing before returning to Justin on the bed. He lay down on top of him, naked skin warming naked skin.

Justin wiped Brian's eyes with his fingertips, and Brian did the same. They stared at each other for a long time before Brian finally spoke.

"I want to feel something other than pain. I want to feel something wonderful, beautiful. I want to feel…you."

Justin nodded and reached over to retrieve a small bottle of lotion. He thrust it into Brian's hand and the brunet wasted no time in liberally coating his fingers. He slid two into Justin's ass without hesitation and he marveled at the burn. He wanted more.

He wanted it to hurt. He welcomed this pain.

Brian moved his fingers in and out quickly, kissing Justin just as hard. He let his nails run down Brian's back and dug them in as he slid in a third finger. Justin moaned and arched his back as the younger man spread his fingers, loosening his hole. Brian pulled his lips from Justin's neck and coated his bare cock in the lotion.

Justin watched his entire body shake with anticipation.

Brian positioned the head of his cock at the entrance to the blond's body. He captured his lips in a searing kiss as he pushed the head of his cock in. He threw his head back and moaned as he penetrated a man for the first time. He figured he should tell Justin. He assumed Justin was experienced, and knew exactly what to do.

"Justin," he grunted. "I've never done this before."

"Me neither," Justin panted. With that, Justin pushed his hips back hard and fast, impaling himself on Brian's hard dick. He cried out from the harsh pain and intense pleasure that the action brought.

Brian's eyes popped open and he let out a loud groan as he felt himself slide deep into Justin's ass. He looked down and saw the tears in Justin's eyes. He couldn't believe he was a virgin.

"Jesus Justin. Take it easy."

"I don't want to…take…it…easy. Fuck me." Brian stared into the fierce blue eyes apprehensively. Somewhere deep down, he knew this was wrong. It was wrong to do it like this. But his dick felt too good encased in Justin's ass. It sent a rush through him that dulled his anger, frustration, and pain. He pulled out slowly, and thrust back in hard. Justin screamed and he groaned. It was like a fire had been lit inside of him, burning each nerve ending. This was amazing. Justin was amazing. Pull out, thrust. Lose all coherent thought.

Soon the pair was rocking against each other, moving in a steady rhythm. Too fast. Not nearly fast enough. Brian groaned and licked the sweat from Justin's upper lip. Justin dug his fingernails into the flesh of Brian's hips so hard that he winced. He bit the blond's bottom lip in retaliation, and then sucked on it to soothe the pain.

It was raw. It was rough. It was fucking beautiful.

Brian's heart beat furiously against his ribcage. Only, it wasn't out of fear. It was because of something wonderful. That same something wonderful was currently moaning and writhing underneath him, panting his name and scratching at his flesh.

"Justin…" Brian moaned, running his fingers through blond, sweat soaked hair. Justin pulled him down until their lips crashed together. The kiss was intense, mind blowing, heightened only by the sensation of Brian's cock sliding in and out of his ass.

Justin pulled away and came with a strangled cry. Cum spurted out of his leaking dick in thick ropes, painting his chest in the milky liquid. He rode out his intense orgasm, shutting his eyes against it.

Brian came seconds later, pulling at Justin's hair. It was only a split second later, when Justin felt Brian's hot seed shoot deep into his body, he realized what they had forgotten.

They didn't use a condom.

Justin didn't have much time to worry about the lack of latex, because when Brian smiled sleepily at him with half lidded eyes, he forgot about everything except for the expression on his face.

"That was…"

"Intense, amazing, unbelievable?" Justin offered.

"Perfect." Brian smiled and pulled out of Justin. The blond whimpered his disapproval. They shared another kiss, and fell sleep together, all wet and sticky.

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